Lab tests show I’m negative for c diff toxins A & B…which makes me curious, what physiological process is causing me to have this slow, steady gas? And why is my gut apparently irritated by a lack of food?
February 18, 2009
+1. Technically, I sat on the toilet twice this past hour, but the second time was literally just gas, plus enough moisture to spot a couple squares of tp. So I’m not counting it: meh.
I’ve written very little lately about compassion, such that all that remains is a log of disease. Perhaps it’s because I’d counted on significant improvement by now, or rather, significant improvement without this current regression. I’d imagined myself feeling well enough by now to be able to bike to the nearest Buddhist temple to learn compassion and meditation from masters.
It’s still on my mind, but somehow I’m not feeling it as profoundly. I feel stuck, looking inward hopelessly for my body to right itself. Which leaves little energy to direct outward.
